Tuesday, October 13, 2009

First impressions

I have learned a very important lesson in my 17 years on earth. That lesson is well, never judge a book by its cover. I can be judgmental, though I try not to show it. I quickly form first impressions, sometimes based on the wrong things, such as other people's opinion of the person. This was the case with L.

"Nobody likes L", "L is a bitch", etc. And I had a brief conversation with L and from that 10 minutes I decided that I didn't like her.

A couple of months later (about 2 weeks ago), I had a conversation with L that lasted over 2 hours, and if there is one thing I learned, it's that she is a beautiful person. Few others I have met have the compassion, empathy, or pure intentions that she possesses. I truly admire her and I have found that I really do like her and like talking to her.

L is not the only person with whom I have experienced this. Never have I given someone a chance and not come away from the experience with a new appreciation for and a new understanding of that person. Sometimes, as in L's case, I come away from the experience with a new respect and genuine admiration and liking for the person.

To L, you are a beautiful person and I am sorry I judged you before I really knew you. You can be sure that I have a whole new respect for you and I look forward to talking to you in the future!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Too proud to admit it but...

I find myself often using this blog to say things I either wont or can't say in "real life".

I got my first ever call from a recruiter tonight, right as dinner was ending. As soon as the Sgt (I think that's what he said) said he was from the US Marine Corps, I hung up the phone. I didn't say "No thank you". Just "uh yea..." and that was it.

My Dad said I should have politely said no thanks and goodbye. I said something like let me handle it I'm old enough to get called by them I'm old enough to handle it.

The truth is I know I could have and should have handled the call better. The way I handled it was, ultimately, downright disrespectful. To that Marine Corps Sergeant, I'm sorry. Thank you for your service to this nation, and I regret what I said/did to you. Please take comfort in the fact that this taught me a lesson.

Now I'm getting all paranoid that they're going to draft me just because I was rude to one of their recruiters. Ok rational Tim says: "You're crazy. They get hung up on and probably worse every single day countless times. They aren't going to draft you just because you did that. Only a lottery decides who goes and who doesn't anyway. Don't be silly. And don't be disrespectful."

The reason I was so short with the guy was because I have heard horror stories about people being harassed incessantly by military recruiters despite the fact that they said they weren't interested. In that moment when I was on the phone with him I had a mini panic. I didn't know what to say or do and just automatically switched into telemarketer handling mode and hung up...yeah. Not the right thing to do.

I know I will get called again. I will handle it better next time. I'm sorry. I really am.